Mini Meee...and SO much more

It has been MANY MANY months since the last time I was able to post anything, and boy let me tell you..SO much has happened I don't even know where to begin! So here it goes...

After my last visit with the fertility clinic they told me that if I was serious I needed to consider a different method, something "stronger." The next option was to consider doing fertility shots (and if you know me you know that me even considering this is a BIG deal, I DO NOT do shots). At the time this sounded like I had no other option and I wanted to have a baby so bad I would walk to the end of the earth to make it happen. So I scheduled the appointment to start the process.

At the same time I was planning on spending my days stabbing my stomach with a needle I was also getting ready to start my new job. I was so excited to finally join the working world again and to start contributing to our family, and mostly to be able to do something other than sitting at home stressing and thinking about this fertility process. I went to my first Dr.'s appointment to learn how to inject myself with the medication and I also learned that in order to do the shots it required me to go into the Dr.'s office more often than usual so that they could monitor the dosage and the progress. After that appointment I realized that I was already planning on being in the Dr.'s office (and not in the work office) at least 8 different days out the month it would not be a good start with my new company. I made the hard decision to place the shots on hold for a few months until I established myself at work and got my insurance sorted out.

I could not believe how much I enjoyed my job and enjoyed what I did, that those few months I wanted to wait came and went as fast as night to day...and then a couple of more months passed by.  I kept trying to think of when would be a good time to start the shots back up, but something would always come up at work (some big project) that I could not even really think about it.

After a couple more months went by I noticed that I started feeling a little off....not like myself. I was crying about things I shouldn't be crying about. I was tired when all I did was sleep. My husband would annoy me more than most. I was eating and craving beef jerky?!?! What in the world could be wrong with me?

After coming to the realization that there was something weird about me I decided to take a pregnancy test. I had no hope that this one would be any different or have any other outcome from the many I had taken in the past, but I just wanted to take one so that I could rule out that possibility and move on to figure out what the heck was wrong with me. After waiting those couple of minutes I took a peak at the test and just as I was about to throw it away something caught my eye. There was something different about this test....there was a solid line and a slight hint of another...I knew it was a defective one, It had to be! I then proceeded to take 4 more....all turning out the same. I was still in denial..there is no way I am pregnant, I was told that I don't ovulate and therefore can't get pregnant. I rushed to my Dr for them to confirm that my pregnancy tests I took were all wrong and I was right....but I was wrong and the tests were right. I was pregnant! FINALLY! I could not believe it.....

Fast forward to today...I am currently 26 weeks pregnant with our baby girl and she is due February 14, 2014. Her name is Kimball Rose - a strong family name for a strong little girl. My husband and I cannot believe that we are blessed with such an amazing miracle and we are thankful each and every day for it. I have been dreaming and praying for this child for years and I am so grateful that I get to experience this miracle of life. As I sit here and write our story I can feel this little peanut (that is her nickname) move inside me and I can't help but shed tears of joy knowing God is truly amazing!

Career Woman

We have now been in Texas for 4 months and each day I question if we made the right decision. I knew personally that it was right, having my family so close and being able to take part in family functions. But professionally, did we make a mistake? For my husband he wouldn't think so, he is so much happier here than he has ever been, and loves his job more than anything (of course not more than me, but you get the idea). As for me I feel like I am a kid again, when a grownup asks you "what do you want to do with your life, what do you want to be when you grow up?" and you never have the right answer.

I have spent hours on end applying for more jobs then I can count, and it feels like I am running on a hamster wheel. Working so hard to get nowhere. I was extremely blessed to have had such an amazing group of people to work with at Disney, that I fear I wasn't going to be able to find that closeness again. (maybe that is why I thought about changing careers and going back to school..who knows, I am one complicated woman) Everyone I worked with was more than a colleague, but a friend.

After going through interviews and reading up on companies, my fear started to seem like it was inevitable...until the other day....I had an interview with this company, and when I left there I felt like THIS is what I have been searching for. This is the type of company I want to work for and these are the exact type of people I want to work with. I left there feeling elated! I wanted this job soooooooo bad! I was on pins and needles just waiting to hear back. (The hardest part is always the waiting). Luckily I didn't have to wait too long for them to call me...whew!...and WOOO HOOO they offered me the job!!!!!!!!!!! I'm finally back out in the workforce....I start January 7th! Lets hope the Mayans aren't correct about the end of the world.....

I finally feel like this is where I am supposed to be in life, and I couldn't be more excited to see what the future will hold in my career.

Anyone else out there as excited about their career as I am? Or am I just nuts?

My Silhouette

You know those nights where you lay in bed wide awake just wishing your brain would stop running a million miles a second and you think to yourself, 'Tahnee if you could just focus on breathing maybe you can get some sleep..inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale, find your inner chi woman'. Yep that was me last night! In the midst of my sleep deprivation and the million ideas I had flooding my mind (one of them being to write a novel) I decided that it was about time (and more logical) to start a blog. So at 4:00am I rolled out of bed and begin my journey of blogging, I had no idea what I was getting myself into! I wasn't sure what I was going to "blog" about much less how to design one. And then comes the problem of naming yourself, oh boy!. Before you know it, its 5 hours later and I am just now starting write. Since I am new to this I think its best to start with the basics and get to know one another, like a first date :)......so here it goes.......

My name is Tahnee, I am married to my wonderful hubby, David, who is my rock, my soul-mate, and my best friend.  Our story is that of a real fairytale, he is my Prince Charming!..literally castle and all ;)... David and I met when I decided to take an internship at Walt Disney World and move halfway across country. It was a dream job that I always wanted, but never really knew I could have until the opportunity fell on my lap. When we met I wouldn't say it was love at first sight, according to him it was, but I think we got some wires crossed and he had a funny way of showing it. I tried every way possible to avoid him and his rude remarks and gestures, obviously I was not successful, but for that I am thankful! Once we were on the same page, it was instantaneous and I didn't know how I could ever live without him, the only problem was that I had to go back to Texas after my internship so that I could finish College. Long distance to me wasn't an option, but he somehow convinced me that it would work...and lookey there he was right! (probably the only time he will be, hehe jk) After many years of flying back and forth and late night phone calls, I move to Florida to continue my career with the Mouse and be with the love of my life.

 Fast forward to today, we have only been married 2 years now come November, but time sure does seem to fly by! I am a newly housewife who decided, and convinced my hubby, to up and leave a fortune 500 company with a really great job to move back home to Texas (crazy, right? yeah I am beginning to think that myself). All my life I had these dreams of moving to a big city, working for a major corporation, and slowly taking over the World one job at a time. I was well on my way to becoming King, I mean Queen of the World, well sort of...I believe I would have gotten there one day. Then out of nowhere on one of those sleepless nights like I told you about before, I decided that it was imperative that my hubby and I move back to Texas to be closer to our Family. I told him that 'Family is the most important aspect of life and if we were going to start one of our own then we needed the support and love of ours. ' It was hard for us both to leave the only job that we ever really knew to move to a town where we weren't sure what to do. Luckily David found a job and is able to support the two of us while I figure out my life. But see, here is my problem...now that I am sitting at home I have been contemplating changing my career and going back to school for something that I love (which would include more debt), or should I just get back out in the corporate world and make that money honey?!? Oh the decisions of an adult...again, who said growing up was fun, and why were we in such a hurry to do so? It is with these questions that I will leave for now....